fauxPAS
haha I especially liked the part where he said,"You need help carrying your stuff? You NEED help CARRYING your STUFF?!?! YOu can CARRY YOur Own SHIT!...
Here's another 1. Didn't really help much.
How can I be happy when my whole future is at stake here.
I should go punch some shy people now...
Simplicity;
is boring?6:36 PM
Anyway, yesterday was the PW Live! festival. Went through it unwillingly, found out that I was a turtle. Shucks~! This will mean that whoever is in my group will die. So pray hard you don't get me ppl...
Truth to be told, I am a turtle(avoiding), an owl(collaborating) and a fox(compromising), which speaks alot about me. my scores were 31, 29 and 28 respectively, which means that my personality is quite screwed up. 2 extreme ends that conflict each other. So about them:
The Turtle
-gives up personal goals and relationship.
-believes it is hopeless to try to resolve conflicts.
-believes it is easier to withdraw from a conflict than to face it.
The Owl
-values highly goals and relationships
-views conflicts as problems to be solved and seeks a solution that achieves both his goals and the goals of the other person in a conflict.
-maintains the relationship by seeking new solutions that satisfy both himself and the other person.
-is not satisfied until a solution is found that achieves his own goal and the other person's goal.
The Fox
-is moderately concerned... Argh u get the idea.
All that was mentioned was clearly in play during the 1st month of this year. My previous posts can serve as evidence. The way I gave up appealing to other JCs despite the fact that I worked so hard to get to that point. The way I gave up after being rejected by NYAEP. The way I gave up on everything else including my goals and relationships, proved that I was clearly a turtle.
Shame on me. Well, I'm just barely living with it, and I hope we can come to a compromise...
Simplicity;
is boring?8:41 PM
I wished I had appealed to NJC instead, then again, I chose VJC instead, and NJC is so far away.
Then ARGH ARGH ARGH I can't bear to go on...
These are sentences quoted from derrick's peanuts for brains
"im not given a chance to exhibit my potential in a subject i'm best at."
Fineeeeee, I'm a lazy artist, kill me then.
"derrick is a waste of the earth's resources and is not useful to society, thus being a deadweight expenditure, should be exterminated to preserve the earth, for the greater of mankind"
I ought to be shot, no wait, I ought to have my balls ripped off, then begged to be shot...
Simplicity;
is boring?3:25 PM
I think we're going somewhere.
We're on to something good here.
Out of mind, out of state.
Trying to keep my head on straight.
I think we're going somewhere.
We're on to something good here.
There's only one thing left to do.
Drop all I have and go with you.
[Chorus:]Somewhere back there I left my worries all behind.
My problems fell out of the back of my mind.
We're going and I'm never knowing (never knowing) where we're going.
To go back to where I was would just be wrong.
I'm pressing on.
Pressing on, all my distress is going, going, gone. (pressing on, pressing on)
And I won't sit back, and take this anymore.
'Cause I'm done with that, I've got one foot out the door.
And to go back where I was would just be wrong
I'm pressing on.
I think we're going somewhere.
We're on to something good here.
Out of mind, out of state.
Trying to keep my head on straight.
I think we're going somewhere.
We're on to something good here.
Adversity, we get around it.
Searched for joy, in you I found it.
Somewhere back there I left my worries all behind.
My problems fell out of the back of my mind.
We're going and I'm never knowing (never knowing) where we're going.
To go back to where I was would just be wrong.
I'm pressing on.
Pressing on, all my distress is going, going, gone. (pressing on, pressing on)
And I won't sit back, and take this anymore.
'Cause I'm done with that, I've got one foot out the door.
And to go back where I was would just be wrong
I'm pressing on.
You look down on me, but you don't look down on me at all.
You smile and laugh, and I feel the love you have for me.
I think we're going somewhere.
We're on to something good here, and we're gonna make it after all
let Screw ups be screw ups, no time to mend them, leave them be and they will just crumble by themselves. Hah~! I can't be bothered any longer...
Relient K's songs are awesome when it comes to times like this. Hmm, should i consider converting myself to christian next...now that is the right question...
Seeyall in school tmr, and hopefully I can become mentally stronger by DB initiation. OSSUZ~!
Simplicity;
is boring?6:34 PM
Series of events interconnected, has brought judgment upon thyself.
Let's analyse the circumstances (a.k.a. snowballing Shit):
1) If I had not hooked myself to the computer, I would have spend more time on my subjects during primary school. Thus allowing me a better grade and entering the special stream.
This would allow me to take HCL which would be beneficial as I could enter TJC or NJC.
2) If I had not hooked myself to the computer, I would have been able to spend more time on improving my english in secondary school, which would at least allow me to improve 1 grade and enter VJC, or after taking HCL, (refer to 1) enter TJC or NJC
3) If I had not been so committed to Scouts in Secondary school, I could have developed in other areas and spend more time in English which might improve my grade by 1 which would allow me to enter VJC or TJC.
4) If I had not taken Art in Secondary School, I would not have gotten as good a grade in O levels, thus I would not have chose NY. Thus lessening the suffering.
5) If I had not taken Art in Secondary School, I could have spend more time on my English and improve my grade by 1, allowing me to enter VJC or TJC.
6) If I had not gotten 8 points for O levels, I would not have developed the false hope of entering VJC, thus I would have put in more effort to show NYAEP i was a worthy student.
7) If I had not gotten 8 points for O levels, I would not have put NY as a 4th Choice, thus allowing me to enter NYAEP nonetheless.
8) If I had not misinterpret the question on Induced magnetism in my 2nd prelim physics paper, I would have jumped 2 grades allowing me to enter VJ PAE thus allowing me to continue in JAE through appeal.
I was stupid, and narrow minded, and now you all know, but I believe that I will change, and you might not see the old derrick anymore very soon. Sorry to have to worry everyone, but I am fine now, ( I rmbed 1st day of O2 I almost broke down when i was forced to take the college pledge. ) Scary, but thankfully i resisted. Maybe I should listen to GH's advice, quote " Now is not the time to fall down, cry and move on, Now is the time to fall down and scold FUCK FUCK FUCK..."
haha, to all who are still worried about me, STOP WORRYING, I don't want to pull you all down with me~!!! I should return to my old/new self soon ( hopefully by monday ) Just give me some time and space to forget PAE...
Thanks
Simplicity;
is boring?12:39 PM
Oh it was sad, it was sad, it was sad when thatgreat ship went down (hit the bottom, brother)Husbands and wives, little children lost their lives;it was sad when that great ship went down.
Oh they sailed from Enga-land, and they headed for the shore,But the rich refused to associate with the poor.So they sent them down below, where they were the first to go.It was sad when that great ship went down.
Oh it was sad, it was sad, it was sad when thatgreat ship went down (hit the bottom, brother)Husbands and wives, little children lost their lives;it was sad when that great ship went down.
Oh it was an awful time for the people on the sea, And the band struck up with "Nearer My God to Thee."The captain tried to wire, but the wire was on fire;It was sad when that great ship went down.
So the moral of this story, as you can plainly see,Is to wear a life preserver when you go out to sea.Little children lost their lives as the waves came o'er the sidesIt was sad when that great ship went down.
Oh it was sad, it was sad, it was sad when thatgreat ship went down (hit the bottom, brother)Husbands and wives, little children lost their lives;it was sad when that great ship went down.
I DIDN"T GET INTO VJC...GARH<>oh it was sad
Simplicity;
is boring?5:51 AM
Here are the last of OG 17 and others...
Fuck...
Simplicity;
is boring?6:15 PM
DiD someone kick my balls while i was asleep?
Anyway, PAE is coming to an end, so is my stay in NYJC. *tears* This is saddening, I'm emo-ing here again liao. My sweet strawberry days are souring, and I wish I could be trapped in this timeframe, living the delusional days of unlimited joy and satisfaction. I will always remember the people who made my life worth living again...
Once again, Og 17
ART CREW~!
NYDB~! (suppose 2 have 1 more)
Yes, I do hope it doesn't end...
Simplicity;
is boring?8:00 AM
Simplicity;
is boring?5:46 PM
WEDNESDAY WAS an uber random retard day. CNY celebrations at NY was crap...SO BORING, the stage games were so random, Y are the seniors all in house T shirts...VS had wushu(uber zai 1), choir, n even keely, the campus superstar. then some KC dancing. what did we have? okay la i probably think the lion dance was satisfactory, not very fantarstic. Guzheng so so, CO so so, THX LOR THE TEACHERS CAN"T SING FOR NUTS...
SO we had to unwillingly sit there for that 1h 30 min "show".I wonder whats it like in VJC...
Had lunch at parkway BK, met the NYAEPeeps, this 1 is super random, we joined them for a picnic, i would say it was an interesting experience. FUN lar. all so funky and spontaneous. feels like a family outing or sumthing. Had tidbits, bread n ham n all sorts of junk incapable of a normal feast. camwhored, played cards, played fresbie. I GUESS IT MUST BE FREEDOM I MIGHT SAY, not bound by any restrictions is best. Do what ever you like. makes me delusionally happy...
biked for an hour or so before packing up. RUSHED home to get ready for reunion dinner. look at the time, it was only 3.30pm .. . zzz... so this year we had dinner at 5, walked around chinatown. AWW little Jamie was ever so cute. they drove us home at 8, zo bo, came online, chatted like crazy, until abt 1am?
Today, superasskicking day, woke up late in the morning, went to uncle's place, spammed my cousins 350D and 40D with useless photos, ate my usual share of auntie's homemade curry. Its a yearly affair. Watched the nicolas cage movie "next" simply awesome, gave mandarin oranges, received tonnes of ANG PAOS, this year's reaping was awesome too. HUAT AH HUAT. after long hours of stoning and eat ing junk food, went to my other uncles place to slack, same routine. watched some retarded chnl 8 show about some indian comedy, and now im back home, hungry for more food...
MUST BE THE dragonboat training la, making me famished all the time. Anyways as u can see from the way i wrote, i was tired and point forming up everything. Anyways hope u guys de-pao your ang paos and get good stuff...
May the paos be with you.
Of course you will 1want the paos to be with you, which dumbass would leave his paos lying on the floor anyways... hahaha
Simplicity;
is boring?7:30 PM
Currently Working on: ZZZ Project 2018
We're all gonna die before this world ends, No worries...(ARGH SEE THEY MADE ME SAY INAUSPICIOUS THINGS DURING CHINESE NEW YEAR... CURSE YOU, {!!!~ARGH CRAP [!!!DOH.~SHIT (zzz...you know what... forget it...zzz)]}
Let's just blame it on the Americans. They started all these. Big brother? its all bull. they just want to control the entire globe with their selfish ways.
On a lighter note, let's Watch this. REALLY COOL LARX.
Simplicity;
is boring?5:50 AM
Freakin' awesome lar. I didn't know people would do that. And guess what, Louing at the former national stadium summore. Might be the FIRST AND LAST LOU HEI WOR... and those guys went crazy over it. Louing all over the place. The makeshift table, the floor, EVERYWHERE... WHO WANTS TO SHAKE MY PROSPERITY HAND~?!?!
I felt really Hi-Lo today. Dragonboat training at noon was tough... I couldn't run with the team yet again coz i sucked. 2-3km at a pace faster than my 2.4 is simply shagging. Breathlessness grabs my lungs so tight, depriving it from letting any oxygen enter my bloodstream, resulting in loss of speed and power. The numbness was overwhelming and I had to slow down... After the Run, it was like a ton of rock on my legs. I fall off balance every few steps. ARGH~ I didnt get to go out to sea, coz my food was tumbling within my stomach, ready to come out anytime. Weak...I curse my wretched body for not functioning the way I expected of it. Spent close to 3 hours on land, alone. A feel really pariah-lised coz I am so nooby...until to two senior seniors can back. LOL they too, wanted to go rowing. At least it wasn't that bad after they began talking about random stuff like they saw this guy with the NEH JI ring. Tattoos that look like you're wearing another shirt. a.k.a micheal scotfield-like. and Chio Bus from canada. And we saw this Caucasian that got really tanned. He was red all over they joked about him eating too much chilli, the redness didn't wear off after like a 2 hr timespan?
after the long grueling wait, we had "uniform" inspection. Punishment came up to 70 push ups. I AM SO WEEAAAKKK.. I did like 50 and my ARMS WERE LIKE JACK HAMMERS, TREMBLING EARTHQUAKE~~!!! fell to my knees countless times....I AM SO WEEAAAKKK.. I DON"T EVEN DESERVE TO BE A GIRL>~>~>~>~
bah.wardEvar larx Anyway, the COOL PART COMES NOW. XURONG, U MISSED IT... WE HAD chinese oriental salad, YAY LOU HEI..
Simplicity;
is boring?8:31 PM
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