Saturday, February 23, 2008
The all THings Reject...ME
FUX la, this time the harsh realities of life have really got to me.
Series of events interconnected, has brought judgment upon thyself.
Let's analyse the circumstances (a.k.a. snowballing Shit):
1) If I had not hooked myself to the computer, I would have spend more time on my subjects during primary school. Thus allowing me a better grade and entering the special stream.
This would allow me to take HCL which would be beneficial as I could enter TJC or NJC.
2) If I had not hooked myself to the computer, I would have been able to spend more time on improving my english in secondary school, which would at least allow me to improve 1 grade and enter VJC, or after taking HCL, (refer to 1) enter TJC or NJC
3) If I had not been so committed to Scouts in Secondary school, I could have developed in other areas and spend more time in English which might improve my grade by 1 which would allow me to enter VJC or TJC.
4) If I had not taken Art in Secondary School, I would not have gotten as good a grade in O levels, thus I would not have chose NY. Thus lessening the suffering.
5) If I had not taken Art in Secondary School, I could have spend more time on my English and improve my grade by 1, allowing me to enter VJC or TJC.
6) If I had not gotten 8 points for O levels, I would not have developed the false hope of entering VJC, thus I would have put in more effort to show NYAEP i was a worthy student.
7) If I had not gotten 8 points for O levels, I would not have put NY as a 4th Choice, thus allowing me to enter NYAEP nonetheless.
8) If I had not misinterpret the question on Induced magnetism in my 2nd prelim physics paper, I would have jumped 2 grades allowing me to enter VJ PAE thus allowing me to continue in JAE through appeal.
I was stupid, and narrow minded, and now you all know, but I believe that I will change, and you might not see the old derrick anymore very soon. Sorry to have to worry everyone, but I am fine now, ( I rmbed 1st day of O2 I almost broke down when i was forced to take the college pledge. ) Scary, but thankfully i resisted. Maybe I should listen to GH's advice, quote " Now is not the time to fall down, cry and move on, Now is the time to fall down and scold FUCK FUCK FUCK..."
haha, to all who are still worried about me, STOP WORRYING, I don't want to pull you all down with me~!!! I should return to my old/new self soon ( hopefully by monday ) Just give me some time and space to forget PAE...
Thanks
Simplicity;
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